Thursday, August 20, 2009

A series of unfortunate events.

Its been an emotional week. Its as eventful as ever but only 1 was mercilessly carved onto the seems-to-be invulnerable dragon's heart.

Melancholy brimmed the room while the apathy 1 uses its way of concern by shouting. Thanks little nicky for always being there silently, in the back scene. I appreciate that.

Its disheartening sometimes that in life awful decision has to be made. But we cant control every1 or influence others to think and act the way you want. Its too selfish and almost impossible. So after the many attempts, both side giving in and thought it all worked out, the same problem surfaced. Exhausted. Both chose the easy way. To walk away. What a waste. Somehow, it seems like an inevitable choice. But its because the possibilities was not explored. I duno if im making the right choice. nevertheless, i've made the choice, 1 that might seems irrational to many.

It proves much too weary. the onerous task of being an ic and a friend simultaneously. Perturbed of losing a friend because of ops because its just NOT worth it. Yet no matted how disinclined I am to carry out the task, I HAVE to do it. good thing that the cat is still understanding eventually. =)

Just took a dive in the enclosed stormy sea within the dungeon. Tired.

short term - friends outing this weekend
long term - 169 more days.