Tuesday, September 29, 2009

F.A.L.L.E.N

I never felt so terrible before. It was the worst Sunday night ever. Whole body is aching as if i just did a triathlon. Twisting, tossing, turning and coughing nonstop. Had ALL the drowsy medicine in the world but i just CAN'T get to sleep. Stymied. Before I realise, it was already dawn. Sleepless night.

Its heartwarming to know that many around me had shown their concern especially my congenial 'neighbour' upstairs who had displayed extended care. Thanks 'foreverwontlose' ( and some1 who I least expected to)

I feel bad to leaving my team behind to suffer with 1 man down to run the details. However, the restless, exhausted and selfish part of me gave in. Qw said before, people are like that; when given a chance, they will do it, so he don't blame them. Maybe homosapiens are just like that due to the many years of evolution.

Maybe That's why when someone said i chao geng, my reaction was more than titanic than i imagined. Did i try my best to battle the fever fiend? Could I have just hang on and continue to mount duty? From the moment I asked for replacement, my mind already threw in the loser white towel.

Lost in the battlefield.

I thought I have abandoned that part of me that is obsessed of how others think of myself. Apparently I still haven't shake of that irritable shadow because i still give a damn what you think of me. HAIXZ

Fever subsided.

Dizzy spells, Muscle ache, sore throat, coughing. hope i get back on my feet soon. I don't like to feel feeble.

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